what a day......
today was kindda depressing...for some reason i just couldnt shake the feeling of sadness ...i felt so lonely,cant explain...
all i did was think about him, what could have been, were i went wrong, why it didnt work out..i thought i was over him, guess not....men, i wish i could just disappear...hmmm...
then again is the problem of Sonny....after chatting with Vaak, i tried to see if there was anyway we could actually start dating...i no Sonny loves me, but he is my bestfriend,i just cant think of him in anyway apart from the kind loving friend that he is...
But Vaak seems to think that we are meant to be together, if i dont get my acts together i could lose Sonny to some girl...
Right now i cant imagine sonny to be nothing other than my friend, but what if someday things change and by then he has moved on....Vaak thinks its just a matter of time before fall for him..
I guess am gonna have to wait and find out but like my granny says "the newyear is always full of surprises"...
